Dearest K,
We've spent the last six weeks getting to know each other. Even
though you were early in your pregnancy I never doubted your commitment for
this open adoption. I loved our
conversations and the pictures we exchanged in anticipation for what was next.
The long and short conversations we’d have every day, I’ll miss those. I could feel the excitement even through email
as our trip to meet and match was getting closer. You are Bright, beautiful,
and one of the sweetest people I've had the privilege to “meet”.
Today everything would change. I've been dreading that phone
call. I was hoping it would never come
to pass but it remained in my mind since you first told me. I know how upset
you are about this for us and we feel the same for you.
Today my heart breaks.
It breaks for you, us and what could have been. It breaks because I can’t
be there for you as you go through this. It breaks because I knew when I woke
this morning that something must be wrong because you hadn't responded and that
isn't like you. I wish I could call you and let you know it’s going to be ok and how sorry we are. We wanted nothing more than to include you in our lives but what’s important now is you. Please know it isn't anyone's fault, nothing could have been done. I
know how strong you are and you will get through it, just as we will but know
this I will miss you!
Please
know if you need to talk I’m still here for you.
Sincerely,
Nicole